Help My Unbelief, Lord!

When we doubt, we have no faith in God.


Ep. 2 | Help my unbelief, Lord! Alter'd Submission

My Dear Disciples,

I greet you in the name of our Lord and Savior. This week’s Moment of Submission is: DOUBT

Let me begin with a moment of transparency, because I mean, what are we doing here if we are not being entirely transparent? As a matter of fact, this topic was one that made me vulnerable. Recently, I struggled with bouts of doubt concerning some circumstances I had been facing. In the last week, God gave me a revelation on how to overcome doubt, and I thought I would share it with you.

I am an entrepreneur. The weight of that sentence alone can make you imagine the weight of the role. No, I’m not talking about what you see on social media or what the media shows you in bits and pieces. What I mean is the full weight of being an entrepreneur. Entrepreneurship means that you create income out of nothing, and that is not something that is light, which is why you must be called to it. You must have endurance to endure the highs and the lows. Trust me, you’ll have more highs than lows, but I’d like to share one of the lows that I recently experienced.

My business recently hit a low, and I found myself questioning everything God had called me to do. I was taken advantage of by someone who posed as a respected professional. It hurt not just my business, but also my self-esteem (for a moment). It was like God led me into a wilderness that gave me my spiritual birth. While I fought for my business physically, God transformed me spiritually. Through God’s grace, I did it. Through blood, sweat, and tears, I did it. With my husband fighting alongside me, I did it. I would be remiss if I did not admit I did have doubts along the way. At times, I questioned whether I was hearing God correctly. I questioned my purpose. I would second guess my decisions. Making decisions was somehow difficult without the reassurance of man. Almost losing sight of myself, I allowed doubt to crimple me. Yeah, I mentioned my husband beside me, but sometimes his words fell on deaf ears.

It wasn’t until I sat down with God—mad and confused—and I laid it all at His feet and I basically said “Listen God like I need your help. I think I hear you, but I don’t if it’s just me talking to myself, can you send me a sign to let me know that I’m not going crazy??” He didn’t say anything that day but the next day (somebody say, “the next day”), while watching Transformation Church and in worship with God, He spoke every so softly, “BELIEVE”.

When God spoke, it sent me into an ugly cry, ranging from screaming to roaring to screaming again. He had answered me, y’all. I don’t know about you but when God speaks, I get undignified in my response to Him (ask my kids, they know). The way He spoke to me that day was loving and tender to my ears. It was exactly what I needed. It was a sweet sound and I cried even more because I never wanted to leave His presence. I felt so large in His eyes. Like the Almighty God inclined His ear to answer me.

From that day on I stood on God’s word “BELIEVE”, but I still had doubts from time to time. I would hear from God and as much as I wanted to believe, somewhere throughout the day doubt would rear its ugly head. It would make me discouraged because all I wanted was to believe like God said, but I couldn’t conquer doubt (in my own strength). Shortly after, I embarked on a 21-day fast. I laid out my requests to God for the fast, but He had His own plan for me (I’ll take His plan for me any day). Do you know not one of my requests was about doubt? I wanted God to do something for me that I was not even praying about. But thank God for Holy Spirit. The Scriptures tells us that when we don’t what to pray about, the Holy Spirit intervenes on our behalf.

One morning I was in prayer, reading God’s promises and declaring them when doubt paid me a visit. Feeling defeated, I went to the word of God. I begin to speak in my heavenly language to the Heavens and I declared that doubt was no longer my portion. The first Scripture that I was led to was: James 1:6, “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double minded and unstable in all they do.”

I was floored. Now don’t get me wrong, I have read this verse before, but never received the revelation until that moment. God is so good. He gave me the revelation when I needed it and was ready to receive it. I had overlooked it before because although I wanted to be free from doubt, I wasn’t taken the steps to be free from it. Holy Spirit dropped it on me like a ton of bricks and like the soldier that I was (Army veteran 😊), I went into action. I knew my mission, I knew my orders, my assignment and I began executing.

First, I repented. The Bible tells us that if we will repent, pray, and seek His face and turn from our wicked ways, then the Lord will hear from Heaven forgive us and heal our land. II Chronicles 7:14

Second, I created and spoke declarations about doubt based on God’s word. Anytime I felt any ounce of doubt, I would say this declaration aloud. I don’t care where I am.

Doubt is not and never will be my portion.

My God tells me in Mark 11:2 that whatever I ask in prayer, believe that I have received it and it will be mine according to the will of God.

My God tells me that when I remove doubt and believe in my heart what I say will happen, it will be done for me.

I will believe and not doubt today.

I will stand in boldness, confidence and trust in My God.

Jess 💙

I also meditated on the Scripture that tells me that I have the authority to bring every thought into captivity under the Anointed One.

Third, I let God do His part. And remember like I told you, He is Faithful to perform, if we do what is required of us.

During the fast, my spirit became stronger and stronger each day. As I fasted, my flesh began to die away. I mean literally, yeah, I lost physical weight but most importantly the desires of my flesh decayed away. I no longer desired to do the same mundane things, that I was used to doing before. I replaced those things for time with God, seeking His face and direction for my life. My spirit began to be more sensitive to the Spirit of the Lord and I felt whole. Each time, I felt myself mastering the day, God called me a little higher, pushing me past what I had defined as limits. But I persevered, like He knew I would. Towards the end of the fast, God pushed me even further than I imagined. But because I love God, I’m obeying.

Has it been easy? No, and yes. It only gets hard for me when I chose to walk by flesh. You see the flesh offers me desires that are contrary to the spirit and they are immortal. When I remain in the spirit, I receive the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, self-control, kindness, faithfulness, goodness) and I don’t know about you but that’s what I want.

Maybe you’re like me, you don’t want to doubt, but it just feels like doubt is always lingering. I want to challenge you. Let’s decide together to finally cut doubt out of our lives off at the root. We all want freedom, and that freedom is rooted in our submission and obedience to the One and True Living God. So, lets stand united to be altered in Christ together. God loves you and so do I.

Prayer for Doubt:

Dear God,

I thank you for your disciples that are reading this moment of submission today. I pray Lord that the testimony of my words and your great works have impacted their hearts in a way that brings glory to your name. Now, God I ask that as we take a step in humbling ourselves, repenting and turning from our way, that you will hear our prayers from Heaven. I pray that the doubt that consumes our minds will be casted in the sea as we obey. We allow you the opportunity to do what you do best. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

Until next time,

Jess 💙

Prayer for Salvation:

If you’ve gotten this far, and you wondering who is this God that she keeps referencing. I want to let you know that you have been led here by God’s divine order. If this message resonated with you and you would like to know this Jesus that I speak about, this is an opportunity for you to meet my Jesus. Let me just let you know that you don’t have to have it all together. Jesus says come as you are, and He will do the refining.

The Bible tells us that if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, then you are saved. If you want to give your life to Christ, then make this declaration:

Dear God,

It’s me. I repent of my sins. I confess with my mouth and believe with my heart that Jesus is Lord. I believe He lived, died, and rose again just for me. Now Holy Spirit come into my heart. Transform me in you. Amen.

If you’ve made this declaration, I want to welcome you into the Kingdom of God. Your name has been written in the Book of Life. I rejoice over your salvation, but most importantly the Heavens are rejoicing for your salvation. You have made the best decision that you will ever make. God is so proud of and so am I.

If you gave your life to Christ today, I want to partner with you. I want to walk this life out with you and be here for you. Please complete the form below so I can share some next steps with you (don’t worry, I’m not going to SPAM you).

Until next time,

Jess 💙


Published by Jess, from Alter'd Submission

Hi! My name is Jessica, but you can call me "Jess". I greet you in the name of the Lord. I am a child of God, Evangelist for Christ, Wife & Mommy. I birthed this ministry out of the obedience to my King. My prayer is that through the many experiences that I will share with you that you experience God in a way that causes you to submit to the will of God.

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