Obedience is better than sacrifice

Let me tell you about a time when I was disobedient to God, and how it nearly cost me EVERYTHING. I know, I know, not the typical introduction that you’re used to but I’m believing that through this testimony of mine, you will be set free from the bondage of disobedience and I will be free me from the shame that I have been bound to by this mistake. Glory to God!

In 2021, God launched me into entrepreneurship in the heart of the pandemic. Not only did He launch me, but he answered my prayers for success. Five months into my new venture, God blessed my business with a multi-million-dollar contract, all while in a pandemic.

God is so faithful.

But, can I tell you that I lost that same contract, 90 days later? I know you’re like ‘how did that happen, Jess??’ Well let me just say this: If you’re not ‘properly’ prepared for the blessing, when you receive it, it will feel more like a burden than a blessing.

And that’s what happened to me.

Don’t get me wrong, I was positioned in every way that a business owner should be for this contract, which is why it was awarded to me. But what I speak of today, is not from a practical mentality, but a spiritual one. You see, with this blessing came more responsibilities. Those responsibilities required me to make decisions on things that I had never been exposed to. It looked ‘good on paper’ and to others that I was in this position of power, wealth, success, but can I tell you I didn’t use the right power. Being the first entrepreneur in my family did not yield examples and lessons that I could use as a guide. My faith had gotten me to this point, but when it was time for me to go a little deeper in trusting God, I coward and I let the blessing become a burden. I leaned to my own understanding and forgot to seek God for His direction. Before I received the blessing, I would position myself to receive wisdom and clarity from God while waiting. But somehow, a daily routine of mine turned into a distant memory.  

But here I was, with this new venture. Overwhelmed, I turn to the wisdom of others. Seeking clarity from some of the top ‘gurus’ that had already been where I was and who I felt could help. I begin to make their opinions more important than God’s. I begin to alter my decisions, based on their approval, not wanting to make any mistakes. A fear of failure. Let me just warn you that this is the quickest way you can lose your blessing. I’m not saying that you should not take counsel from others, especially those that God divinely assign to you, but what I’m saying is that their wisdom does not somehow supersede God’s. If He has blessed you with the request, then it is He whom you should seek for the direction. Where there is vision, the provision stands behind it. Yet, I found myself overwhelmed and confused by the blessing. And as my mother would say, acting like I had no home training.

There was a particular obligation during this contract that required me to make a very important decision to partner with a particular company to assist my company in its business growth. When it came to the terms of the agreement presented by this company, the Holy Spirit was screaming “don’t do it” to me and even my husband. Overwhelmed and rooted in fear, I pushed my discernment aside and trusted that this was what my company needed to move things along. What I didn’t realize at the time was that I had opened the door for the enemy to come in and have legal rights to my (company) blessing.

And I mean like literal legal rights. I didn’t know it at the time, but this company was a predatory lender preying on businesses like mine, and though they were not legally allowed to have rights to my company, when I disobeyed the Holy Spirit, I gave them access to free range of my company’s financials. My disobedience not only affected me but those around me as well. I had acted without the consent of the Holy Spirit which left me vulnerable to the enemy.

You may wonder, well why didn’t you just listen to God, Jess? I was rooted in fear, and I was too afraid that somehow this large blessing that God had given to me, that it would be taken away by man, if I didn’t make this agreement. Honestly looking back on it now, if I would have just listened to the Holy Spirit, I would still have the contract. Funny how that works, huh?

When God tells you to do something, it’s to protect, not to harm you. He says in Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans that I have for you”, declares the Lord,” plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”

My sin had pushed me further from God. Since then, I’ve repented to God about my disobedience and turned from my ways to seeking His face. God forgave me, but my situation didn’t change. I did. He began to transform my heart, mind, and soul.

I’ve spent months and months of fighting to save my business from this predator, without a natural lawyer. God told me that He was the Great Defender, and He literally blocked every lawyer from working with me. He told me I would not be using a lawyer to fight this battle, but that He would contend with those who contend with me. This process has been one where I have had to practice daily having complete trust in God. At times, it nearly cost me my mind, relationships, and even my life. Family and friends couldn’t help so they pretty much stayed away. I felt abandoned, lonely, and like a failure at times. I felt that I let my husband and kids down. Even through the failed suicide attempt, God was still there with me, holding me close. He showered me with His love through my sweet husband and resilient children. He has kept me in the midst of it all. As I called upon the name of the Lord, He begin to strengthen and prepare me for each battle. And guess what? He was right.

We won! (Hallelujah!)

A pro se in the natural world is scary, BUT when I equipped myself with the greatest weapon in battle (God), I was able to beat a Goliath (a “trained” legal expert) in the court of law. My God!

What the Devil meant for evil, God turned it for my good. Where I had allowed the enemy legal rights into my life, when I came out of agreement with those things, repented and turned back to God, HE. FOUGHT. MY. BATTLES!

He fought them, y’all. And won 😊

I didn’t have to pay any legal fees, because God had already paid them when I put Him back in His Rightful Seat. Thank you, Lord.

And you know what else God required me to do: Forgive them. Love and pray for them. It wasn’t easy, but I do it out of obedience unto God. Being obedient to God builds our spiritual muscle and that is needed in our walk everyday.  

How many of you can relate? Maybe it wasn’t your business. Maybe you allowed someone or something who was/is a predator, access to you when God was screaming to you “don’t do it”. Yet you felt you knew what was best for you. Can I tell you, you don’t know what’s best for you, God does. And He left us with the perfect gift of the Helper to do exactly what His name is: to help. But He’s not pushy and he doesn’t force his way onto us, like a predator. Our Helper is a gentleman. The bible says in Revelations 3:20, “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I come and dine with him, and he with Me.”

I am so grateful for a God who stands waiting for me. Even when I leave Him hanging, He is still standing at the door waiting for me… and you. I have learned that God knows what’s best for me in every area of my life. I have learned that my trust and faith in my Creator is the biggest asset that I have here on Earth. For with faith, all things are possible through Christ. I want to challenge you, in your obedience to Christ. Obey Him for obedience is better than sacrifice. Amen.



I thank you for the person reading this post. Please forgive us for being disobedient to Your direction, where we have prayed for your wisdom. Forgive us for ignoring Your sweet voice and acting unwise and foolish. I thank you Lord that chains are being broken off of Your children today. I thank you that their obedience will open doors that have been shut due to disobedience. I thank you that you stand at the door waiting for us never leaving or forsaking us. Thank you Holy Spirit for being the perfect gift! We receive your help today. Amen.

Prayer for Salvation:

If you’ve gotten this far, and you wondering who is this God that she keeps referencing. I want to let you know that you have been led here by God’s divine order. If this message resonated with you and you would like to know this Jesus that I speak about, this is an opportunity for you to meet my Jesus. Let me just let you know that you don’t have to have it all together. Jesus says come as you are, and He will do the refining.

The Bible tells us that if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, then you are saved. If you want to give your life to Christ, then make this declaration:

Dear God,

It’s me. I repent of my sins. I confess with my mouth and believe with my heart that Jesus is Lord. I believe He lived, died, and rose again just for me. Now Holy Spirit come into my heart. Transform me in you. Amen.

If you’ve made this declaration, I want to welcome you into the Kingdom of God. Your name has been written in the Book of Life. I rejoice over your salvation, but most importantly the Heavens are rejoicing for your salvation. You have made the best decision that you will ever make. God is so proud of and so am I.

If you gave your life to Christ today, I want to partner with you. I want to walk this life out with you and be here for you. Please leave your name in the comments so that I can partner with you in the name of the Lord.

Until next time,

Jess 💙

Ep. 3 | Obedience is better than sacrifice! Alter'd Submission

Published by Jess, from Alter'd Submission

Hi! My name is Jessica, but you can call me "Jess". I greet you in the name of the Lord. I am a child of God, Evangelist for Christ, Wife & Mommy. I birthed this ministry out of the obedience to my King. My prayer is that through the many experiences that I will share with you that you experience God in a way that causes you to submit to the will of God.

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